angry hearts

When the heart forgets to love then what's it's use. Better rip it out. I'm done with you. Or maybe I thought I do. Can't stand the pain. Now better to hate? There is nowhere to go. The world is contracting. Even in the next world there's you. Nowhere to hide.

Healed, right? Why are tears still here? Why are my thoughts still has you? Why is your voice still ringing in my ears, laughter. Hanging.
You'll forever have the key. I am alone. I thought I was free. Free to go. Free to move on. Your memories still haunts m.e.
I am now. You are here.

Pleasant day but.....
Still counting the passing clouds, hoping you'd be there. checking my phone, hoping you'd be there. pathetic life this is turning to be. Messy.

My all I have given. Time to crawl out of my grave. The light doth shine may not be the same, the heart may be gone,. the spirit crushed. But beating, living. Awaits the day I crawl back in again.

One battle I can't win. One war I've lost forever. One sunset never to shine again. you. iyl- forever.

I thought the world would stay the same till I take my last breath. But it has since turn very cold when your heart ceased beating. CAE. Forever. Walking along the long life road without you, like walking on roses thorns on my bare feet. Aching, hollow, lonely, cold, shallow. Hope in the feet of the mountain dew, you await my presence. Till then. My soul, waits. Your heart, forever mine. As one. Will linger.

ordinary day

outside the circle- inside the circle.
didn't realized how difficult it is inside the circle. been just dreaming before. can't write again. too much emotions. too raw. can't see the end of the tunnel. or if there will be a tunnel, maybe a pit. Can't crawl out.