you are here yesterday when I wrote that I Love You. and you are here again when I post your picture. i think you are always here beside me eventhough you haven't been to my dreams again. maybe that's why you haven't been there... as you are always beside me. As we've promised.
maybe that's why i haven't felt you because you are right here inside me, beside me.
I still ached though. for your voice. laughter. and all you. i really hope there would still be me.... and you beyond here.

There is nothing left of me...
Apart from this heart that's empty..
A shell of myself still beating, still breathing...
I buried my soul with you.
My love with you.
It may change, but now...
All that's left of me...
Is You.
your love
memories
smile
laughter
smell
touch
all that is you.
And my words.

I LOVE YOU Until there's no more to love,
Like the dew sticks to the leaves & falls to the ground,
Like the rain soaks the earth & the heat lifts it away,
Like I breath to live
Until it stops, until I cease, until I cease to love.
I LOVE You. More that you know. More than I know it myself. More than I was willing to admit. More than we both know. Maybe not more, but I love You.

angry hearts

When the heart forgets to love then what's it's use. Better rip it out. I'm done with you. Or maybe I thought I do. Can't stand the pain. Now better to hate? There is nowhere to go. The world is contracting. Even in the next world there's you. Nowhere to hide.

Healed, right? Why are tears still here? Why are my thoughts still has you? Why is your voice still ringing in my ears, laughter. Hanging.
You'll forever have the key. I am alone. I thought I was free. Free to go. Free to move on. Your memories still haunts m.e.
I am now. You are here.

Pleasant day but.....
Still counting the passing clouds, hoping you'd be there. checking my phone, hoping you'd be there. pathetic life this is turning to be. Messy.

My all I have given. Time to crawl out of my grave. The light doth shine may not be the same, the heart may be gone,. the spirit crushed. But beating, living. Awaits the day I crawl back in again.

One battle I can't win. One war I've lost forever. One sunset never to shine again. you. iyl- forever.