I traveled to see the world. My heart was always happy seeing places and people. And knowing their stories. Seeing places that you only read on books and saw on tv. Travelling was escaping the place you already know and seeing new places feels freeing. And then you found me. And suddenly I never want to escape anymore. The world is suddenly pulling me towards you. I still want to see the world. I want to see the world in your eyes. -c

 Brisbane.

The air was crisp in the city.
The day is saying goodbye.
I could just see the moon in the distance.
Above the buildings skylines.
I turned around and i saw you.
Sitting on bench near the river.
Looking at me.
In your eyes, i could see the lights of the city.
Eversince the day you arrived.
In your eyes. I could see. My whole life.
My life, my love.
In your eyes. 

Then there you are.
it's been a long time since i have been surprised by something.
i am still wondering why.
how did you caught me off guard
you were very far away from my mind.
my thoughts, my feelings.
then one day,
you are all three.

Switzerland.
alps. you always wanted to come here.
log cabin.
fire.
you, me, our feelings.
i was waiting for you.
knock on the door.
guitar in arm.
i saw you there.
you dropped everything & kiss me.
we shut the door.
you pulled me towards the bed.

Paris.
cobblestones
underneath the cafe chairs.
french pastry. with cream
butter in my coffee.
notepad on the table.
fancy pen.
writing this.
Eiffel tower in the distance.
camera in hand. my lover.
taking pictures.
looked at me. smile.
he walked back towards me.
lifted my chin to his face.
we kiss.

Marriot. China.
i saw you walked in, backpack.
front desk.
parcel for you.
Bleu de chanel.
your phone rang. you put it in your ear.
tap on your back.
you turned around.
our eyes locked.
you hugged me tightly.
i love you.

Saigon.
walking through the maze of motorcycles.
makeup ruined. heat. smile
your plane lands at 1300 hours.
bar.
cocktail in hand.
1500 hour.
saw you walked in with your suitcase.
jitters. flutters.
you walked towards me.
i stood up & throw you a hug.
we kissed.
you open your mouth.
i tasted tobacco.
so you smoked after landing, that's why it took you longer to get to me.
hand in hand. elevator. going up.

Gendarmenmarkt Berlin.
coffee. apple strudel.
you saw her walking towards you.
hi. hi.
you stepped closer to her.
how are you?
good. and you?
better, now you're here.
you grabbed her waist.
looked her in the eyes.
i love you.
you grabbed her closer.
kiss her full on the lips.
she wrapped her arms around your neck.
she returned your kiss.
then you both needed air.
she looked you in the eye.
and said....

Right

I don't want them to hear me

I just want you to listen

I don't want my name in neons

Just you, whispering them

I don't long for the fur coats

 Your arms are warm enough

I don't want the Princes' kisses

Cause your lips are all I want

What am I going to do with forever?

If you are not there with me.

What are stars for?

When it only shines on me.

The diamonds on my fingers

Are not sparkling enough

Only your eyes will make them shine

Your smile is gem enough.

The roar of your laughter

Are thunder in my skies.

The sunshine of your love

sends warmth into my cold cold nights

No money is near enough

If you can't show me how

To spend my time

With you astride. With me, is just right.

Taking the last steps
To say my goodbyes
Don't know how long I can hold on
Don't know if I can try

Going back to you
To face the truth
That it's over
That you're gone.

Heavy burden
Carrying this load
On my last few steps
Going back to you

I hope I can say it, I hope I can try
Let you go, let you fly
Like the angels' wings
In the summer skies

I can now see the sun
Peeking in the sky
Will you be there?
To help me say my goodbyes.

Unbroken

The wings doth flew
The hearts abound
The goodbyes never said
Uttered in silence, peace.

The broken, untouched
Unhealed, unhinged.
Tears unwipe
Survived.

You left.
Without saying goodbye.
I wonder
If you did try.

Just waiting
when you come back
Through the clouds
Broken glass

Spread your arms
Take me in
When my time comes
You'll be here once again.

Then once more
I'll see your smile
Healed, wide
Your eyes, looking straight into mine.

Amass a love so big
Even death cannot thieve
Hide thine eyes
cover forever, but thine love flounder

the heart awash
covering the unbeaten
the goodbyes had been said
the tears still spillin

dear
mine thine eyes
only in my dreams
you visits

In life
the love withers
the love flounders
in time

In time of death
the tomb shall call
the resting place
is not abound

It is not deep within
the soil
the earth
But in my heart you live, you breath, you beat.

slaves

Slaves of love

Aren't we all?

Slaves of intimacy,

Waiting to fall.

Waiting to be found

In the dance of the search

Soul mates

Throught tears and despair.

Aren't we all,

Looking for love?

Someone to hold,

Our hands, our hearts.

Have you found it?

The true love?

Your master?

Aren't we all,

A slave of love?

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Time is flowing away from you

Carrying me with its waves

Each gust of wind further

From the hint of your gaze

Your shadows disappearing into the dark

scurrying out of the light

The harder I grip

The wildly it hides.

But each gaze I throw

In the fields and skies

I can see the corners of your eyes

staring back, standing by

Each beat of my heart floundering

Each breath escapes, hissing

Your laughter fading

But your love here inside me, lit.

Beating, pulsing, having its presence

heard

felt

wanted.

I dare to hope
I dare to love
I reached out.
Hoping to find you there.

Hoping that it's enough
Hoping that I'm enough.
But you seem to be always looking for something more
You always find a fault

In my eyes
There's always a mistake
Yet you never tell me
Always left me in the cold.

Shivering in the shadows.
It's never enough.
I'm never enough.
Yet, I still hold on.

Why does my heart still beats?
When you held it in your hands
And there it lays in pieces.
Why am I still here?

Maybe just to ask these questions
Over and over again
Looking into my eyes I see a reflection
Of me, of you, of my mistakes.

Dear you,
It feels like a thousand years since I last saw you.
How's the sky?
How's the moon?

Have you found a friend there?
I hope the loneliness is not as much as mine.
Are they kind there?
I hope their smiles are as wide as mine.

Do you still look down to see me?
Have a glimpse of my made up face.
Do you still remember the smell of the air?
Or the sound of the storm?

Do you ever get scared there?
I hope your fear is not as big as mine.
Is there someone who holds your hand there?
Calms your fears as you used to calm mine.

Do you ever cry there?
It streams my face from time to time.
Does your heart aches there?
Mine aches all the time.

Do angels really glow?
With wings ready to fly.
Have you seen His face?
Is it really kind?

Did He tell you about me?
How I'm trying to be brave and wise.
Do you ever think of me there?
And long to see me eye to eye.

My tears are like the rain

My fears are like the storm

My wishes are like the howling of the wind

My hopes like the waves crashing the shore.

Beneath my beating heart

Lies a tomb,

of my life with you.

Encased in your laughter;

Sealed with your love.

Moments of us;

In the grave of hearts.

what are hearts made of?

Of love
and lies
of promises
of pieces 
of you and me


gold dust and trust
joy and pain


willows and daisy whites
of little smiles
of abundant laughter
Tears and spills 
mirrors and memories.


Endless arrays of hopes
and broken dreams.


Of little aches, of little pain
of rupture and sorrows
of roses
of thorns.


Of misty mornings
dewy nights
of blinding stars
of balmy moon
Sunshines
of rain
of peace
and war.


Of whispered secrets
of hums, of songs
of freedom
and prison.


Of deceit and alliances
betrayal and loyalty


of stones and bearings
of mallows and clouds.


Of heroes and villains
of endless swords
and speechless.


Of muted shouts
and loud arouse.


Of impotence
and passionate
and fertile grounds
of unbounded seeds.


Of sea of green
and blinding browns
Of hues of blue
and yellows abound
shades of grey
red violets and rainbows.


Of wind of life
and zapping death.


Of thousand ships 
and endless shores.
Of sea of mist
and clear dewy morn.


Of you and me
Laughter and pain.
Sorrow and longing.
Of love and rain.


The garden of eden
roses and thorns
blades of grass
in the tomb 
of mourn.


Of knives
and death
Graves and earth
the dawn and twilight


The sign of life

And immeasurable end.

Yesterday I feel like I was going in circles
Chasing something
Shiny and bright
Trying to hold onto something.
Round and round
Up and down.
Smiles and frown
sunshine and rain.
Yesterday I was running in circles
chasing butterflies and rainbows
Angel dust in the sky
Endless rays of sunshine.
I was running in circles.
Round and round the elusive ground
Yesterday I was running in circles
But why always back to you.